I let my emotions alter my true feelings.

“Single is no longer a lack of options – but a choice. A choice to refuse to let your life be defined by your relationship status but to live every day Happily and let your Ever After work itself out.” ― Mandy Hale

Hello beauties how are all my favorite people doing on this fine Saturday afternoon?

Its been about 5 1/2 months that I moved out from my ex’s house and a few months before that where I was not happy in said relationship, and although it’s been heartbreaking and it’s taken some time to get use to, I am slowly, but surely getting my groove back.  

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I am in a place right now where I LOVE being alone.  I love coming home, plopping myself in front of my television and just binge watching my favorite television shows (Currently watching Private Practice), or getting on my computer and researching some stuff, side hustling, finding fun recipes to make by myself or with Savannah, or going to the gym (which I slacked off in last week,) with my upcoming solo trip I am pretty ecstatic to be honest, but sometimes you miss having someone to share your stuff with.

I am human so I don’t want to hear that I am moving too fast and I need to give it time because it’s a feeling you can’t just turn off.b3b093bcb4c7f1270bf0a16e9643e913

The last few months have been pretty eye-opening to me with the whole dating poll I have been dealt with.

  • Men are lazy- Why join a dating site if you aren’t going to be using it? Why make contact with someone if you aren’t going to follow through with it? Why waste your time, or better yet, my time?
  • Men don’t want to date a woman with a kid- I have been told plenty of times.
  • Men want an easy piece of ass and that is it- Do not get me wrong I am all about experiencing one night stands, I mean its fun right? I am an adult and can handle them, but come on guys make a little bit of an effort.  I do although appreciate your honesty if that is all you want, but make it my worth wild for fuck sake and don’t talk to me about your dick. It’s not cute and it doesn’t turn me on.
  • I attract men in relationships. 

I am by no means saying that ALL men are this way because I know they aren’t.  I just don’t remember it being this hard back in the day and since when did trying to meet someone become almost as hard as making new friends?

drinkingWith my friends having babies, getting married, adventuring into new relationships, I feel I let that get the best of me and my emotions, when in reality, I know my worth and I know what I can offer, but right now I am so happy with the way things are going in my life, that I am extremely content.

I am not saying if tomorrow I met someone who was worth my time, I would let him go, I am just saying I am not looking, but what I am doing is continuing to enjoy this beautiful like I was given and continue living with no regrets.

Are you?

Always, Jasandra

 

 

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