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Don’t hide the madness that is you. Live authentically true to yourself.

“ Follow your inner moonlight; don’t hide the madness.”– Allen Ginsberg

As I sit here this evening looking towards the future, I find my mind wandering back to my past and it makes me happy to see how far I have come in my 32 years of life.  You see growing up wasn’t always the easiest.  My whole life I have been known as the girl with the scabs on her legs, the girl who was overweight, the girl who wasn’t popular, and the girl who would never amount to anything.  These were all the things I was called during my school days. which don’t get me wrong, it fucken sucked, but it also shaped me to be who I am today.

67feb52b2af25ce2de6ba172679de7cdI have always been the kind of girl who played my own beat to my own my music and a lot of people dislike that. My family hated it.  They wanted me to be different. Skinnier, more by the books, you know.. Well guess what I am not that person and it has taken me a very long time to realize and accept that and guess what I am happy with who I am today January 2nd, 2017!

Even this past weekend when I was in Miami my grandmother called me “fat.” It truly never changes when I visit, but this time it got me right in the feels (could have been some of the red wine I had that didn’t help.) Not because it hurt me, but because that is when I realized that some people suck and that when I look in the mirror I see someone smart and beautiful and its a shame some people don’t see that too and define me by how I look or don’t look. Not to mention that in the past year I have lost over 40 pounds.

It has taken me many years, many self-help books, and many chats with myself to be the strong woman I am today. I roll with the punches.  If I am not happy, I will go find happiness. That goes for a job, my relationships, my friendships and truly anything in my life.   I am loud.  I am bonkers.  I curse like a sailor. I don’t have a filter.  I am honest to the core which sometimes sucks, but I am real and I will never change that.  If you hurt me, I will tell you.  If I like you, I will tell you.  If I fall in love with you, I will tell you.  If I am not happy, I will tell you.  If I hate my job, I will find another one.  If you don’t make time for me, I wont make time for you, but with that I am also the kindest, most loving, most loyal, most caring person you will ever meet.

diva2.gifWith this I tell you… Keep being yourself. Don’t ever change for anyone because you are the only you there needs to be. Some people will not be your cup of tea and vice versa and guess what? That is totally okay. Stand up for yourself. Don’t let anyone bully you or talk to you in a manner that is disrespectful to you.  Don’t let anyone treat you less than you deserve and always follow your dreams.  Fight for you and fight for what you believe in and always, but ALWAYS dance to the beat of your own drum.

Always, Jasandra

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“Ringing” in the New Year for a better 2017

“Life has no remote, so wake up and change it.” – Sushil Singh

To say 2016 has sucked is an understatement, I can easily say it was a tough year, for if not all of us, most of us, but I am ready for a fresh start in 2017.  Although this year brought me a lot of sadness it also brought me a lot of happiness.  I’ll share a few with you.

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  • We celebrated our daughters 3rd birthday at Magic Kingdom.
  • I was asked to be a bridesmaid at my friend Felicia and Jays wedding.
  • We took Savannah on her first cruise.
  • My sister had a baby.
  • I got a new job, which I am totally in love with.
  • I attended a few concerts with my besties.
  • I got a new apartment.
  • We got a bunny.
  • I had an amazing Christmas eve & Christmas.
  • I took a few trips to Miami to visit family.
  • I have met a few amazing people.
  • I have spent more time with people who I have missed.

I can go on and on, but you see I chose to share happiness in my life with you all because it outweighs the sadness. Do not get me wrong this year brought me a HUGE heartbreak, but it also brought me to a place of peace and happiness. Weird how that all works out, huh?0e45be40f23f92e6576378ac16c9eacd.jpg

I wanted to share with you all a few tips that I will be doing these next few days to ring in the NEW YEAR.

  • Let that shit go and stop worrying about the shit you can’t change and just let it go. Move on from friendships that are only one way. Move on from guys that are wasting your time. Let go of that family member that is stressing you out. Quit that job you hate so much. Let it all go and start fresh.
  • Clean your house, throw away all the junk food and restock with good for you foods, reorganize everything, do your freaking laundry, fold the clothes, and start fresh!
  • Write down everything your grateful for.
  • Fill up your gas tank. I don’t know about you, but having the stick on full makes me feel wealthy.
  • Go get your hair and nails done and go buy that dress that makes you feel wonderful.
  • CREATE a VISION board for 2017. Go through magazines and pick out everything you want from 2017 and go for it.
  • Chase your DREAMS.

and finally… when midnight hits on January 1, like my best friend and I say “DANCE THAT SHIT OUT,” CELEBRATE the SAME YOU, but with new goals, and LET THAT SHIT GO.mer-9.gif

What will you be doing these next few days to bring in the new year with a bang?

Always, Jasandra

 

Self love Sundays… A day to unwind and love on yourself.

“Dare to love yourself as if you were a rainbow with gold at both ends.” ― Aberjhani

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It has been so long since I have loved on myself and I have regretted it every single day. You see when you forget who you are and get into a dark place you start to believe that you are not worthy of love. You are not worthy of feeling beautiful or even of feeling like yourself. So you go on and stay away from anything that can probably make you feel amazing.

Everywhere around us there is this persona that MEN are the only way we will ever feel love and I don’t mean that “love” from your kids, I mean that “love” from your significant other.  You know, the one that makes you feel sexy, worthy, beautiful, a queen!  Well guess what… You dont need a man for that.  Do not get me wrong, it is nice. TRUST ME.. IT IS NICE, but have you ever sat down and tried to do that for yourself? Have you ever taken care of yourself in those ways?

img_1777Today I have dedicated the day to me and only me. Now I can do that today because I don’t have my daughter with me so I am able to relax all day, but for those of you with your kids at all times, try it in the morning before everyone wakes up or in the evening before bed.

So here are a few things you can do to for self-love, that I have done today.

  • Wake up and go for a run. nothing makes you feel better about yourself that sweating a little.  Today I hit Coffee pot which is my favorite place to run here at home because it’s on the water and the view is spectacular.
  • Buy yourself some flowers.. Ladies. It’s okay to get yourself some beautiful roses or your favorite flowers. Then put them in your favorite part of your house so you can see them everyday and smile. Its a daily reminder of how beautiful you are.
  •  Go timg_1778o the store right now and buy yourself a face mask, some sexy scented body wash, and some scented salt and have a fucken bubble bath & well if you have some toys… This is the time to play.  (Prudes… Sorry, but reality is, it feels good and I am not ashamed about it.
  • Go get yourself a pedi and mani, because you don’t want no crusty ass nails. POINT BLANK. There is nothing else to this tip except I need to go get one asap.
  • Go get your eye brows done. That to me is one of the best things ever. The moment you walk out of the eyebrow place you feel like a million dollars. Turn on a delicious scented candle, grab a book, a good book, something that will keep you wanting more and enjoy.
  • & last, but not least go get yourself some sexy langerie and wear it around the house. With or without kids. There is nothign wrong with showing your kids self love and that mommy feels and looks beautiful.

We as women need to do a little more for us and a little less for others because we matter.

We are beautiful.

We do a lot.

We work hard.

We always do for everyone.

It is time you do for you!

How do you self-love?

Share with me and others.

Always, Jasandra

Tinder, Match, E-Harmony oh too many dating sites

“Ahh Tinder, the crystal meth of online dating.” – Simon Taylor, Comedian

cu6v2So here I am sitting in my “office” checking my emails and I have over 100 invites to dating websites.  I swear its like the moment you become single, the dating gods know and start throwing dicks at your face.  Hello back the fuck off please and let me enjoy some alone time. I am recently single and technically still “married,”but I want to enjoy myself and enjoy my independence for as along as I can before the “right” man comes around.

So do not get me wrong, if I find someone attractive and they want to chat, I am all ears, but having to pay a company to find me a date seems pretty absurd.  I haven’t been in the dating game in a very long time and most men I know are either dating someone or married.

Hey if this is something you do, more power to you, I tried, but it was exhausting.  What happened to the days where you met people in random restaurants, school, or grocery stores. Dating seems exhausting right now.

af123039ece2528ba9f6b7339f96a3a1Can I just find someone who wants to cuddle and then go home?!  I kid I kid, but seriously, people help me out here.  Although I am not ready today, I did join Tinder the other day and damn it was like the moment I swiped right the dick pics started to fly. Listen slow down boy at least ask me how I am doing, let’s get to know each other before you bombard me with your tiny penises. I did chat with a  firefighter for a few days to which he tried reminding me daily how hot he was by sending me a photo of his body in bed. So I cancelled Tinder because well… I would like to be able to hold a conversation with someone.  Then I joined E-Harmony and Match and although both seemed great, just to get started you needed to answer to the freaking FBI/CIA. So many freaking questions I gave up, plus I wasn’t paying a single dime.

Not to mention I have a 3 year old daughter who is extremely smart and I definitely do not need some random stranger coming to my house or stalking me, because I am amazing. HA HA HA. Too much confidence huh?

No seriously, the mix changes when you have a kid.  You need to make sure you are picking a good one to come around your kid.  Your kid is your BIGGEST responsibility and you need to keep your child safe and to be honest not a lot of men or women want that responsibility (which I do not expect anyone to claim my kid because she has a wonderful dad,) but you also do not want to pick a douche bag or someone who will mistreat the little one.

On that note, I ask you ladies and gentlemen where did YOU meet your significant other?

Share with me where you go to meet people?

Share with me your horror stories along with your feel good stories.  Do not be shy!

Always, Jasandra

Learning to be alone after a breakup-Loving YOU enough to have dinner with yourself.

“I think it’s good for a person to spend time alone. It gives them an opportunity to discover who they are and to figure out why they are always alone.”- Amy Sedaris
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Society these days gives you this sense that you need to be surrounded by people all the time and that you must be in a constant relationship,but do you ever wonder what it is like to be alone?

Do you ever wonder who you are without so many people around you or having a significant other?

These past few weeks have been nothing, but a life lesson.  I have spent the last 6 years of my life surrounded by someone and before that, all I ever did was date. I never knew what it felt like to be alone.  I always had someone in my life, and I had started to forget who I was and what I liked.  I stopped doing the things I loved and started to just settling with what was.

Slowly now that I am alone, I am remembering who I was and I am starting to do those things I enjoy. I am starting to love myself again, which is something I haven’t done in a very long time.

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I turn on candles every single day.  It makes me feel so sexy.
I play music, sing, and dance all day.
On the days I do not have my kid, I eat alone. I have never ate alone before.
I have slowed down.
I am back to my exercise routine.
I am eating well again.
I am more patient.
I am working on my passion.
I am READING. This one is big because I hate to read and I can never sit down and focus, but I have started again and it has been something that has been helping me so much the last few weeks.

It sounds crazy, but when you’re in a relationship for so long, you lose sight of who you are and what you want in life and I am extremely happy that I am able to find that happiness again.

It isn’t easy, it takes time, but slowly we will all get there.

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So if you recently got out of relationship, take your time to get back into the game. Learn who you are and what you like. Date yourself. Take yourself out to a fancy dinner. Grab a bottle of wine and sit at the park and read a book. Go exercise alone. Start a conversation with a stranger. Sit at a bar and buy yourself a drink. Go buy yourself something pretty.

Always, Jasandra

Creating a positive space in your life.

“You can’t make positive choices for the rest of your life without an environment that makes those choices easy, natural, and enjoyable.” — Deepak Chopra

a2b236dcd5e02b76dee4a5e41d310266Here I am sitting in my office (and by office I mean my room.  Where I sit at my tiny little white Ikea desk, listening to Coldplay, with my lit soy candle, 3 self motivational books, and my Jasmine tea.)  It’s where I feel myself these days and I am not ashamed of it.

I have been living in negativity for a while now, and of course it is my fault, but over the weekend and this past month I have had some sort of revelation and I have been working very hard to get myself into a positive mindset and I only have been able to do this with an amazing group of friends, an amazing Facebook page, and my own fucking self.

So if you have been negative, down on yourself, or just pretty much hating everything this blog is aimed towards you!

STEP 1 is to GET THE FUCK OUT OF THAT FUNK and START to LIVE YOUR LIFE.

Here is what has helped me during this journey and hopefully it can help you some.

1.  unnamedDo you have a safe place? Somewhere where you feel like yourself. Somewhere you can be you and no one is watching? If not, then get one. Hence my Ikea desk.  It is small, it is not made of the best wood in the world, I hit my head while building it, but when I sit on my hand me down chair I feel like myself.  I feel like I am worth something. Go ahead and right now stand up and find a small space in your house that you can make yours. Throw some pillows, a blanket, a scented candle, and some books, and let this be the place you come to when you need to center yourself.

2. If you are like me you spend a lot of time on Social media and don’t let anyone give you a hard time for that. Social media is the shit and will be the future of all futures so get on that shit and create your dreams. First though you must delete any negativity. This is a place you check in so often so you need to make it something positive. I recently had to delete a few folks, unfollow a few friends, and join some motivational groups.  Trust me it helps. So go through your newsfeed and unfollow any fucker that makes you feel like shit, or doesn’t uplift you. Go ahead and now join a group that will inspire you, that will make you want to be a better person. I recently did this and you have no idea how amazing it feels to log into my social media and see people lifting others up and not bringing them down. TRUST me on this one!

3. As for real life? Do the same shit.  If someone isn’t making you happy or isn’t making you feel like you are GOD then delete them from your life. Family, friends, acquaintances, it doesn’t matter. Bye Felicia. We don’t have time for this shit and we definitely don’t have time for the drama and negativity so bye girl bye. Keep a small circle of friends that love you and ill always lift you up.

4. STOP right now and go to Amazon and get yourself some motivational self-help books. TRUST ME. They save your life, make you a better person, and inspire you to do anything your little heart desires. A few books I love and read over and over again are #girlboss by Sophia Amoruso, Girl Code and The Champagne Diet by the amazing Cara Alwill Leyba, and I am that Girl by Alexis Jones.  These books are little daily reminders that I am amazing and I can achieve anything I put my mind to.

5. EXERCISE and EAT RIGHT. Nothing is worse than treating your body like shit and not fueling it with the right tools to survive. You can’t be successful or happy if you’re stuffing your face with cheese burgers every day. I am not kidding here guys (as I take my hand out of the kettle corn popcorn bag) indulging once in a while is great, but take care of you. It’s not expensive trust me I am a single mom on a budget and I eat right and exercise 3-5 days a week. It is doable, so stop the bullshit excuses.

cb2155f0f78c4a497fa296440aa586eb6. What song currently is your life? Mine would be “Something in the Water” by Carrie Underwood (which BTW I am seeing her in concert this Wednesday and I couldn’t be happier). Music cures all things. It has taken me out of the darkest situations, but has blessed me with the greatest memories. So when you’re sad find a playlist that will make you happy, but when you feel like crying, put on some Adele, grab some tissues, and cry your eyes out. It is okay to feel sad and cry, it doesn’t make you weak, it makes you human.

7. Go out on a date with yourself. Buy yourself that dress, those heels, and  go out to a nice restaurant or bar and buy yourself a drink. You are amazing. You are beautiful. You are ENOUGH.

8. Last… BE authentically you.  Nothing makes you live in sadness and negativity than hiding your true self.  I want to learn about you. The real you and so does the world. So stop hiding from everyone and stop being afraid of what people will think because if you surround yourself with good people they will love you for YOU!

As you can see these are all super easy things you can do on a daily basis to lift yourself and your life up, but you have to follow them. I can tell you a million and one things, but like anything, you have to be willing to step forward and do them.  I have learned that life is way too short to not live it happy and negative free. It is not easy, but it is worth it.

Share below any tips you might have to live a more positive uplifting life.

Always,
Jasandra

Why putting your kids first matter.

I will make sure that my children will never have to go through their parents divorce –Sam Carvalo

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Who knew 6 years ago, I would meet the man of my dreams and exactly 6 years into it, we would be in the process of getting divorced.  Life has so many obstacles and nothing ever goes as planned, but one thing I know is that when kids are involved, you need to set aside your issues and focus on your children’s happiness.

Growing up I was such a happy kid, always with a smile on my face, and always trying make everything and everyone happy.  I remember being in middle school when my parents started to separate.  I was heart-broken.  I was and always will be daddy’s little girl, but my parents divorce couldn’t have came in a worse time.  I was starting middle school.  I was in a new school, making new friends and as if that was not hard enough I was coming home to a house that love no longer existed and it was known.

As my parents divorce was settled and my mom, my sister, and I moved house to house till we found our home for a while, I too continued to move schools.  It was hard to be honest and I can’t describe the feeling I had back then, but let’s just say it felt like I was alone and no one understood me.

When I sit here now and think of my parents back then all I think of is a lot of fighting and a lot of yelling, I honestly can’t remember any good memories.  As I got older my parents although not together would fight a lot, until my dad just stopped coming around.  It sucked.  My heart was broken.  Eventually my dad met a woman and started his own life with her and started to forget about me, and although I know he loves me and I am still daddies girl, he sure has a strange way of showing it to me.

Every single Hispanic girl waits till her 15’s to have that father daughter dance and guess what? My dad wasn’t around,  My stepdad was, which he is amazing. The greatest person I could have in my life, but he wasn’t my dad and as time passed and more occasions passed he continued to miss them. Birthday parties, school events, weddings, baby showers, baby births.  You name it he missed it.  Why? Why does my dad not love me?  I can’t answer that question, but the only thing that comes to mind is he would rather miss everything of mine then to be anywhere near my mother and that is where I as an adult with a child come to play now.

You see now I am in that same predicament.  My husband and I are in the process of separation, but we are trying our best to set aside any issues we have so our daughter doesn’t have to ever go through what I went through.  Here are a few things we do to make this transition as good as we can.

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  1. TALK-When we decided it was time to part our ways we sat down and discussed our plan with out daughter. Everything from punishments to bedtime routines to social events.  The main key in life is to communicate and just because we are no longer together that doesn’t mean communication goes off grid, if anything it becomes stronger. So talk. Have a conversation with your ex about the expectations.

  1. PARTICIPATION-We BOTH participate in activities with her together. For example this past week was her birthday and we BOTH went to Disney with her and celebrated our daughter.  We  will also trick or treat together. Our main goal is for her to always know mommy and daddy will be on her side. ALWAYS. So make things awkward and do things together as a family.  Do dinner once a month as a family, go to the park, do things to where your kid can one day grow up and say wow no matter what my mom and dad were always making time for me together.

  1. FAMILY- They will have their opinions, but this goes back to #1 with communication.  If there is an issue with a family member always communicate it to your ex. No matter what. The relationship is between you and your ex so you need to make sure to nip it all in the butt before problems start to arise because I don’t know about your family, but mine always loves to make a problem out of nothing or get into my business when it isn’t their concern.

  1. ARGUMENTS- Keep them away from your kids. Don’t fight in front of them, don’t scream in front of them. If it something you can’t hold back take that shit outside. Be grown ups and act like one in front of your kid.

  1. LOVE- Last, but not least, LOVE. Show your kid love. Tons of love. That is all they want. Shower them with kisses and hugs. Tell them how much you love them. Be there for them. Show up when you say you will, never miss a game, never miss a dance recital. BE THERE SHOW UP AND LOVE THEM.

Listen I am not a professional here, but growing up I wish my parents did what my ex and I are doing at this very moment. I can only live in the now, tomorrow we get remarried or have a significant other, and I hope we will try to continue this route.

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Was this something that helped you? Do you have any tips to add to these? How do you cope with divorce while having children?

Who are you without the mask?

As I finished my much needed relaxing bath tonight I went ahead and took off my makeup with these delicious smelling face wipes I purchased for super cheap at Ross. I couldn’t help but look in the mirror and ask myself if I was happy with who I was, who I am becoming, and who I want to be.

Do you ever ask yourself those questions?  I mean we wear all this make up to make ourselves look beautiful and to hide all our imperfections, but what about the inside? What does that look like? Our heart? Am I genuine to others? To myself? Do I treat people right? Do I use people? Do I preach what I say?

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Tomorrow something happens to me and I want to be known as the girl that never gave up. The girl who fought hard for what she believed in and when she fell down 100 times she got back up a million. The girl who loved everyone and treated everyone with respect and kindness. The mother that did everything she had to do to make her daughter happy and to give her the best life possible, but the mother that taught her daughter to never settle for less, to always fight for her happiness, and to never take shit from a man or anyone.

At this very moment I can say that I am working hard every single day to be better and to do better. I wear make up to look beautiful for myself, but I also want the world to know that I too am beautiful without it and its okay to have imperfections.  No one is perfect, but only you can work towards that life you want to live and the impact you want to make on others.

So tonight sit down, take off that mask we wear to hide our imperfections, and write down the things that scare you, the things you want to accomplish, the things you preach, and the impact you want to leave behind.

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If you take that mask off right now, will you be happy with who you see?

Always,
Jasandra

What I have learned this past week.

Its been a week since I got my own apartment and started this new journey in my life and I have to say that day 1 was rough, and a lot of tears were shed.  Some were happy tears and some were very sad tears.  I don’t know about you, but when I am alone my mind just races and I start to think about every single thing possible.  You sit down when you’re alone and you start to reflect on your past and see everything that you thought you worked so hard for, just go right out of the window. I mean at least this was my situation this past week.

This week has given me a lot of time to focus on me and focus on my daughter.  To stay clear of the phone when I am with her, unless its to get some adorable pictures of her because guys… That smile of hers is just pure perfection, but seriously though, its given me this bond with her this past week that was just…perfect.  I feel like before I was so caught up with the stress of life that I wasnt paying as much attention to her as I should and that I regret, but I am grateful I have so much time to make up for it.

One of the many things I learned this week is that Savannah very much felt the stress I was feeling.  When we were back “home” with daddy, she was a different child.  Acting up, hitting at school, not listening, giving us a hard time to go to bed, and just being plain old grumpy.  While I know that is normal with kids, it was not a normal thing for our kid, because she never acted like that. Move forward to this week, we have out little girl back.  It’s like all the stress I had, she had, and the moment I moved out, she was relieved.

Another thing I learned this week was that I am non stop and I do not know when to stop and smell the roses. Listen I know im like that, but this week I didn’t have anyone reminding me but myself and man my ass is go-go go. I don’t know how many times I mopped this floor, how many times I cleaned the bathroom, and how many times I threw the trash away. Maybe I am a voiding something.. Who knows, but I am exhausted from just writing this.  I just like a clean house..right?

Groceries… It’s so much cheaper when it’s just two people and mind you, one of them is a toddler. I sat down planned my meals and the meals I’ll make when little bits is here and my fridge still looks empty, yet it’s filled with pre-made food that I cooked for the entire week! Hello I say that is a win in itself and the bill at Trader Joes for the week was well.. 4o BUCKS. $$$$ in the pocket baby.

What else can I bore you with that I learned this week???

I like to be alone. Is that weird? Like I love living alone with my kid, but when she isn’t here with me and she is with her daddy, I enjoy the peace and quiet. I enjoy reading my book in silence with some tea or coffee, but I also love blasting the music and dancing in my underwear all Tom Cruise style.. Except I don’t have his moves..

tumblr_m948uxai211r2r0koo1_500As I go onto this new week, it excited me with all the changes and all the new things I am going to learn about myself again.  Feeling lost and feeling like you don’t even know yourself is hard as fuck and it truly sucks, but I am very positive that the outcome will be great and I’ll fall in love all over with myself, because let’s be honest for a second…  You need to learn to live with yourself and love yourself first before you can ever find happiness.

Hugs and kisses folks..

Always,
Jasandra

The struggle is real with Muhammad Ali at home!

GettyImages-479933880-E.jpegApparently I have a boxer at home guys! The past week or so we have picked up the nugget from school with complaints of her hitting a child and having as her little friend at school told me “Savannah had a rough rough day.” cutest little kid ever though, but man its embarrassing.

Hello Ms. Jasandra, today Savannah put her hands on someones throat at school—– Good FUCKEN shit what in the hell is going on here!!!!

Now let me start out by saying we DO NOT hit at home.  I have spanked her, but its been a while. I generally steer clear from that although sometimes I have lost my shit and gone psycho on her. Lets be real, we all have been there so keep your judgement to yourself and I blogged about that day a while back.

I dont know if it is the separation between Kevin and I or if she is learning this from someone at school  I know she has been bitten a few times and I dont know if she is just following what she sees.  Its been pretty rough because for the most part she is an awesome kid and although we are being extremely civil at home and nothing has changed, I mean we still eat dinner as a family, we sit down and read books, I mean legit nothing has changed.

I know they say kids are smart and can feel the tension at home even though everything in the outside seems okay, it is just stressful. You know, like if we do not have enough going on, lets just add something else to the table?!!

So the last week or so we have been very strict with her.  YES I know she is only going to be 3, but you do not know my kid,  She is smart and she knows whats up. So I took off her nail polish since I know its one of her favorite things and we sat down and talked. Told her we do not hit, we give hugs and kisses, we listen to our teaches, and we do not follow what other kids do, all while she kept repeating who she hit and why she hit said person.

Sorry in advance if it was your kid that my child put her hands on.

I can say today we had a Popsicle date because she had a great day.  It made me happy. Kids will be kids and little by little I am learning that even if we do great at home and teach her the best we can they will get side tracked and becomes rebels when they want, but as long as we can continue to steer her in the right directions I can honestly say she will not be trying out for the MMA, but possibly a teacher, or even an attorney.  I mean she is great at trying to convince Kevin and I that Haylee our dog was the one that hit Leia our other dog, because there is no way Savannah would of done that.  Shit she might even become an actress in a great drama series because this girl is golden with DRAMA!

no bad kids capital quote.jpgIn all seriousness, she is a toddler. She is going to hit.  She is going to yell.  She is going to become a rebel at times.  Shit I throw fits all the time, but what I need to keep in the back of my mind, is just that…. She is a toddler and has so much emotion she is still learning how to deal with it and I need to learn how to handle it.

Anyways, I am a mom to an almost 3 year old and every single day she takes me on the best roller-coaster ride I have ever been on.  Some days I feel clueless and some days I feel success.

We must be doing something right because although she is in a hitting phase at the moment she is the most caring, loving, extravagant, responsible, honest, passionate, dramatic, polite, animated, open, considerate, smart, and my top favorite is she has the greatest heart I have ever seen.

My mom since the day she was born has said that my kid is special and that she one day will move mountains.

I sure hope so kid!

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Always,
Jasandra